Rough day

Today wasn't my best day! It started off when I woke up at 5 am to Morgan giving me her "one bark" which is a series of really loud one barks about 20 seconds apart. I let her outside to take care of business and headed back to bed, where I laid...and tossed...and turned...and never went back to sleep.

When I finally got up after 7 I definately felt like I was barely hanging on! I got ready for work very slowly, continually wondering if I could do it, knowing I would probably be exhausted and unproductive.

On the way to work I had what can best be described as an explosion, which actually felt like an out-of-body experience :) I've never heard that voice before and kinda felt like I was in slow motion. After that the tears started, followed by a hot flash that made me quickly lose my rain jacket and required full blast A/C for 10 minutes (it wasn't THAT warm this morning!). I think there were actually ice cycles hanging off the rearview mirror by the time I got cooled off.

I got in to work and tried to go through my normal routine...log in, check emails, respond, accept meeting invites, check the calendar, then go for hot water for tea. The tears just wouldn't stop. And there really isn't much I hate worse than crying at work. I decided to leave and go for a drive to see if I could get back to normal. I did a trip to Starbucks for a decaf Americano and a blueberry coffee cake and pulled into the parking lot to sit. I talked it through with my pal, who had me laughing and crying at the same time...and gave me a little of her special tough love. I finally decided to head home for some scissor, glue, ink, and special neighbor therapy (by the way, thanks for telling me I am an ugly crier!!!!).

After an hour and a half I finally got the tears to stop.

I guess this means the meds are doing their job!